Hello (:

My name is Stephanie Bates. I'm 17 turning 18 on august 10th and I always thought being skinny was.. amazing. since i can remember, I've always had this mind set that it was pretty and attractive if your bones show. or if your veins in your neck when you talk or sing or laugh meant you were healthy and skinny and just happy. about almost a week ago, my boyfriend who i am totally in love with, broke my heart. he told me that he could never be attracted to me because i was a larger woman.. but i was cute in the face. and also he said if i was skinnier that I'd be super pretty and we could go out again. i know that what he said wasn't supposed to hurt me like it did, but i can;t help it.. i want to be skinny and pretty and attractive and wanted by him, that i started to starve myself. first it was a 3 day fast, then i ate a little and started to throw it up. i did that for a couple more days. the day i went to see my mother in the hospital, she saw that my face was pale and my lips were discolored and that i look tired. she told me i better not be trying to be my like friend Andie (who also has a severe eating problem) and that she wanted me to eat.. and i love my mother a lot, so i went home and pigged out. i felt so ashamed.. i felt like complete crap for the rest of the night. i went to throw it up about 30 minutes after consuming it, but nothing came up but water. i was ashamed of myself. but now, I'm fully committed to being skinnier and 'attractive' and i want my bones to show so badly, that i will DIE if i have to.

CW: 277
what i want to get down to by my birthday (8/10): 265
GW by the end of the year: 130
ultimate GW: 110-105

i know i can do it. if i sent my mind to it. and its completely set..

skinny, happier life, here i come